Today was all right. I got paid ($455), my biggest check ever from the restaurant. Sad part is that it’s already gone to food and bills!! I bought my vikes out, $36, and that’s the extent of the money I’ll be spending on drugs for the next 2 weeks—good for me.
I got pretty f**ked up today. Smoked with Pat and ate some vikes; later Athena came over and we got really ripped. Ate some more vikes, went shopping for food, an average day.
Even though I was getting high and spending time with friends, I noticed that I had the most depressed feeling though. I thought this was strange. I think that very slowly my mind and subconscious is turning against this lifestyle I’ve been living. I need to move on to greater things. I must make a complete change.
It’s important, I think, not to become content with my progress and instead continue to strive for more, more, more. I’ve been seeing light at the end of the tunnel lately, even though I sometimes wonder if I possess the strength to reach it. One day, God willing, one fine day….
Intake: 60 m hydroco, oral. smoked A LOT. 2 beers