I broke my streak of sober today, scrambled up $20 from Don and bought 45 mg of morphine. Too bad, it was an awful waste of money, as is always the case.
Work was short, 3 hours, and of course Tess was being worthless as always. I finally brought my case before Elta, and she totally agreed with me. I think the problem will be handled in short order, if not I think that Tess will be in danger of loosing her job, at least I hope she loses it. She is just about as worthless as a cook as anything else.
I notice that my teeth are beginning to cavity and decay all over the place. I need to see a dentist for some very serious work soon if I hope to ep them past age 30. I really wish I had taken better care of them. I’m beginning to become quite self-conscious about them. I think they have kept me out of the love game to some extent. I regret wasting and not taking better care of them. I sure do now, but I think it may be too late to do anything about them.
Intake: 45 mg morphine IV SHIT!!!!! NO !!!!!
Day 1 tomorrow, Please……