I have been bad about keeping up with my journal; I need to refocus and get back to my entries. I’ve been doing a lot of thinking lately; hasn’t amounted to much in the way of action, but i will soon change that I hope.
The last few days have been okay. I’s getting colder out, but I find myself almost looking forward to the rest of October. I used opiates on Thursday (payday, 40 mg Oc IV) and for that I’m not happy. I had 8 whole days of sober and messed it up! Now I have 3, but it went by so quickly, maybe that means I’m getting better? I’ve been smoking a lot more marijuana lately, and my drinking has increased a bit. I really just need to cut all of this out.
Renee is in Poland, thinks she may just visit Pripyat and Chernobyl. Talk about jealous!!
Intake: Ø day 3, smoked