Had the day off today, but it was still horrible. I felt terribly depressed all day long, felt like crying most of the day also. I thought I had enough narcs to get off real good, but it didn’t satisfy all day for some reason. I felt something strange, a twinge of AS creeping in. It shouldn’t start until tomorrow or Saturday. I think it’s all in my head really; this depression is playing tricks on my damn mind.
Talked with mom today. I’ll be going home Sept 13th!! Hope I can get clean by then, or stable on something, but prefer clean. It’s going to be super hard. I start tomorrow, and I figure at the rate I’ve been going through the summer it will take me about 7 or 10 days to get completely off. That’s 7 to 10 days of being just god-awful sick. I started taking the amitriptylene today, for withdrawal as well as depression. Hope tomorrow is better.
Intake: 100 mg oxyco, 10 mg hydroco, 400 mg propxyplene, oral