Wow, really bad day today. Since the beginning of summer my roommate/ landlord John has just become more of an ass, more of a control freak, more of a hypocrite each day–it’s to the point where I’ve just been out-right avoiding this guy whenever possible. I’ve spent a lot of alone time im my room lately. Anyways, I’ve come to the point where I’m tired of being treated like shit for no reason by this guy. I get treated like I’m his guest instead fo a paying resident of this house. He walks all over me, and I have just been letting it happen because I hate any confrontation, but everyone has their limits! Today I was accused of using his shaving cream, which I didn’t, and I finally stood up for myself, just let him have the full brunt of my defense, and it caught him off-guard, and he got really pissed and told me I should find another place to live, at which point I retreated a little (I shouldn’t have; I should’ve been ready). We proceeded to get into quite the argument/discussion about how things go around here/ At some point I brought up the fact that this guy smokes in his room after outlawing smoking n the house, AND telling me that I couldn’t even smoke in MY room. Now that caught him off guard, and he realized that he had been exposed as not only a hypocrite, but also as a bold-faced liar! He knew it too. He felt bad at begin caught ,not that he did it, just being caught. He is such an idiot though. I saw the ash tray through the open door in his room. He tried accusing me again: How did you know I was smoking in my room unless you were in there? I told him, but I should have said “Idiot” at the end. He’s always accusing me of stupid shit. After realizing what the loss of $320 would mean to his bottom line he backed off ever so slightly, but the damage has been f**king done! I’m out of this F**ker as soon as I can find a new situation! In fact, I would ideally like to find a place sometime in the next 8 days, move all of my stuff out secretly, and then come Sept. 1 tell him to com e up with a refund of my damn $320!!!
I have to do something, I won’t be here passed Oct 1 unless he comes up with a pretty damn slick apology and a commitment to treat me with some respect, realistically though I should probably just get out despite what he may or may not do. He’s always been a real negative asshole type guy. I’m tired of having to tip-toe around this place avoiding his horrible negative energy–it’s tiring. I really have met few people as foolish, lazy, hypocritical, and mean-spirited as this guy is. He is just a real waste of a human-being, a nobody who treats everyone around him with absolute contempt. I think I’m out of here!
Intake: 50 mg methadone, oral